Omira la Afara

I heard stories of how people become Healer because of fear, something happened to their family and they use the spirits to protect themselves, some people become a healer to survive so they can feed their family so they sign contract with the spirits. I grew up in Haiti, i've seen all types of spirituality. When I was going through that process of making this choice of become a healer, I asked myself the same question; why do I want to do this? some people tell me if I said yes to the contract of becoming of Manbo I will have a lot of money and will always have protection from the spirits where nobody could harms me. I couldn't sign the contract because to me there were more than money and I didn't want to do this based on fear not my higher self. some people told me this life is my destiny and I can't run away from it. I said I and nobody else decide who I want to become.

So I aksed myself that question why do I want to become a counselor and spiritual Healer? does that bring me joy and peace? am I doing this in survival mode? am i doing this because all of those people told me this one who am?

I thought about it and realized that I want to become a healer and safe place for people because I understand. I understand  how your voice can be silence at a young age because of spiritual, mental and physical trauma. I understand as a young person how you can open yourself to people and they carry demons that can attach to your light, I understand as a wife how you can give yourself to the wrong person, I understand as a mother the need to protect your children and even as a single mother what's that like to start over on your own, I understand what's like to start over from scratch, I understand what that like to not want to let go, I understand what's that like to live on survival mode. I understand what darkness feel like because I've been through it, which can consume you until you become the darkness itself. I understand what that like to signed unbalance contract physically, spiritually and mentally. Contract that drained people soul until you have nothing left. I understand the fake smile and the pretending everything is ok when it's not, I understand when you have to carry so much on your own where nobody there to help and sometimes the same people that could help will shame you or hold it over your head. I understand because I know I've been through it. I understand what that hole feel like inside of you where everything you try but nothing can fill it. I understand what that life to feel physical pain because of trauma itself.

I want to become a healer and choose this path because I understand. I don't know what's you going through currently or your family going through all I can tell you there's a solution to everything. sometimes you might just need an outside perspective grounded in truth and understanding.